Loneliness

I'll admit that I get lonely from time to time, I think we all do. However, I think that my own loneliness is more a result of my own making. My isolation is absolutely self inflicted, but I'm filled with hope because that means that it's in my power to change that. I have so many friends and family that care about me, that want to spend time with me and be present in my life. I just need to make the effort to meet them halfway. Social interaction is a feat that requires effort on both sides part, and I haven't been putting in that effort. That needs to change. Being alone is dangerous for me. It's dangerous because I get wrapped up in my own mind and get into a spiral of self criticism and depression. I just allow my thoughts to fester and deteriorate my sense of self worth to the point where I look in disgust at the person that I see in the mirror. I know that mindset is unhealthy, and I know that my choice of loneliness is what brings me to that point. I'm not going to lie, my social anxiety is a large factor that leads to my loneliness and it's a hurdle that I need to overcome. As of right now all I can do is to take baby steps towards the goal of getting out of my shell and utilizing the large social network that I'm blessed enough to have. Again, my loneliness is of my own making, so it's entirely up to myself to change that.